Daienu - the Easter post

Every year for Easter we sing a song called “Daienu” – it tells the wonders that God has made with His people, and after each one of them it’s said “That would have been enough, that would have been enough, daienu, daienu, daienu.” – meaning that if God had done only one of the wonderful things He did it would have been enough. But He always surprises us with more miracles.

So, I too like to think about all the wonders God has made with me. And not just the big miraculous things, but especially the small ones, the moments we spent alone, the moments when I know He was there and He sat right next to me, like the loving husband He is. Like 2 years ago when I took a trip along the Inn to a small German village and there was waiting for me a Church full of sunflowers, which are my favorite. Only He could have done that.

So I sat yesterday, before leaving for the Easter Vigil, in front of my Beloved’s tomb. And in those silent moments of gratitude for His love and His death, I thought of all our beautiful moments from last year. The big ones, and the small ones… especially the small.

·When we held the catequesis in the Church and had to preach His word

·Every time we went to 1 Mai and sat on our favorite bench watching the Sun over the meadow and talking about my life

·When I was crying before my final exam and He sat with me and then walked me home

·When I left for Chisinau, scared and terrorized and He stayed always by my side, waking me up at 6 am and helping me study

· When we were in Israel, and I got my purity ring saying “I am my Beloved’s and my Beloved is mine” and we sat together in the chapel of the garden where He met Mary Magdalene

·When in Israel, on mount Carmel, He was the still small voice in the wind and He colored the entire horizon in blue, just because it’s my favorite color

·When He was holding my hand through the hard sleepless nights

· When we sat on a rooftop in Jerusalem, feeling so close to Heaven we could almost touch it

· When we visited Sibiu alone and enjoyed our time together

· When we were in Venlo and sat by the river in the sunlight and He made me feel I was beautiful to Him

When He helped me finish a special gift for someone we love
 When He renewed my strength, my faith and my hope

·When He made me feel I belong with Him and He will never let go of me

· When I read Him the whole Song of Songs on Christmas Night

·When He understood I need to wallow and encouraged me through my days of tiredness and depression

 When He told me it’s ok to let go, and reassured me He will make everything good

·Every time I feel sad and hopeless and He makes me laugh or smile about something

·When He told me I had done everything I could and sustained me through the hardships

· When I sang to Him

· When I would put Benedict to sleep and fantasize about my future wondering what He has in mind for me

·When we discovered Arad together and prayed in the Maria Radna Basilica

 And so many cups of coffee that I drank in my flat thanking Him for providing for my every need so that I could enjoy the sunlight going in through my window

My Lord is my Beloved. He died for me and resurrected for me and He is my first husband. He will make everything good, even if I don’t see it or understand it yet. One day, when I’ll look back at all we’ve been through I’ll see crystal clear that His plan is perfect and all that He does is wonderful. I am thankful for every moment we spent together, even if I let Him down so many times, even if I lost my hope and my faith, even if I didn’t accept my troubles and my pain, even if I shouted at Him many times. My sins do not surprise Him, it is His love and forgiveness that surprises me. Thank you, my Beloved, may this year make my love for You grow more and more each day!